Life is weird..no..it is the weirdest of all. Sometimes I find everything in this world linked, and sometimes it is so much confusion that I tend to believe my colleagues' expression of life as meaningless. But I survive every time before falling into that dark depth of meaninglessness.

I always end up doing things I hate the most & never used to do the things I passionately want. I listen patiently to people I don't like; the same me will restlessly shout at those whom I care the most. I start with something and end up with something different. I do things which I promised to myself a hundred times as never to be repeated. I keep on forgetting important things in my life, and I never fail to get flash alerts of moments I hate the most...I smile at the oddest hour and be gloomy when I am supposed to be happy. I like someone for one character which is negligible to his/her 100 negative ones and hate another because of his/her one character which is negligible to his/her 100 positive ones. I always end up saying no to the things which I wanted once. I feel jealous of someone I consider as my own and later regret. One moment, I am selfish, and in the next second, I am not. My list of contradictions goes on.

With time, my preferences and thinking patterns changed, some for good and some for not so good. Sometimes at the least expected moment, one of my dumbest ideas will start working!!! Many times, the decisions I thought as excellent, crashed, making me look like a fool...But...But somehow like a jinx, it all fell in the right places. Somehow I feel that everything happens for good and with a reason and I always managed to say 'life is good and always will be good', the only thing is that we have to see the goodness in it...

But there are questions which I could never find any answers to...just like the tears on that little girl's face which made me walk back from my favorite church door...I felt too greedy to pray when there exist so many who needed god more than me...

I am bad and good; I am right and wrong; I am wise and the idiot. How weird to think that way! And sometimes very depressing too. But still, I go on with my life, with a simple thought; an assurance - All this confusion makes life and all the things which I do and think are common; shared by all... it simply means I am human!!!!!!!!!!! how weird...