live...live...

hii
today feb 16th..nothin special abt dis date...we all ve so many days wiped away frm our life without leavin behind anymark..its sometimes disturbin to think dat we live a full day in a way dat v ve nothin to remember..earlier i used to jot down somethin in my diary evryday..but aftr bein in hostel i didnt even get time to thnk abt my diary!!!..nw i kno its a part of life to always leave behind somthin, coz v don ve time or v ve more impotrnt things to do dan spendin time to make tokens of memeories......am goin home for study leave..donno y feel like missin d campus though feelin excited to b at home...humans r really queer..why v feel so contradicting emotions about the samethin at the same time..but dont u thnk dis contradictions make our life thrillin and sometimes worth leavin...always keepin some lnks here n there..some strings dat make u feel d pain wen some one pull..everythin counts in our life..each n evry moment countss..2day ve gt an internal xam(retail)..am rushin off..bye bye
no no..i vnt gone..don feel like studyin nw..after reachin home i ll upload some intrestin snaps which i likd...
ho..am nt feel like writin too..but anyway i ve no other options left..if i start sleepin nw i wont wake up 4 d xam..he he...wat a studious student!!!..
sometimes i think am being very much irresponsible but what is it like to be responsible ..he he..d ones who kno me ll say"xactly nt like u"he he..ok..i accept..but somehow i like to do evrythin in d last moment ..it ve gt its own way of fun..always doin thngs with a last minute of running around n panic..wat can i do..its d way i am..i always take resolution to b systematic but somehw it never works..still am workin on new plans to make me systematic..dont laugh ,one day i too ll b known as a very very systematic person..he he..but secretly i ll say...i like dis way...dis world dont ve any order,what happens around dont ve any order,our thoughts dont ve any order,past present n future don ve gt any order..den y shud we stress ourself by creatin an order to ourself which actually doesnt exist...am nt criticizin people who believ in order ,dey might ve created a world for themselves in which dey r perfectly happy n content..but for me its really tiring...but i do hate cluttered rooms n cluttered thoughts though both may give us lot of things to do and thnk...look ..again am contradictin..he he...human na?..
i ve read a book.."5 point someone "by chethan bhagat..gud work..he ve succeded in abstractin certain bare realities of life...hw v live a life totally carried away by certain things which v later think as dumb...v kno d meaningless of relationships which we bulit around ..still d way we cherish n treasure those strings as our life codes...coz without all dat v all bcome too free dat we donno hw to live..we all need strings ..to keep ourselves in d way v r...bt some make d codes too tight dat it suffocats n lead a life as mere puppets..i feel pity for those people ..it can b codes of loved ones,it can b codes of prejudice and attitude,it can be codes of religion n culture,it can b codes of education and status....whatever it is ,dont make those strings too tight dat binds ur thoughts n imaginations..coz thats d real way you have to live and thats 4 what you r really made for..its a fact dat we may nt b able to live in d fullest of our dreams but don b too harsh n blind to our glowin innerself dat plead for our glance...live !!!!!!!!